What do you do...

When throughout your whole life. In a relationship, you have only known about lies, cheating, pain and the other person leaving you for a member of their same sex. Huh?

What do you do..

When you leave someone for someone else, only to find out that that someone else had another someone else he was trying to be with and had you on hold incase this someone he wanted told him no?

What can you do..

When you are so used to the lies, the pain and the cheating that after finding what was said above out, not by the lips of the person you care for but by the lips of the person he rather have... That you still care for the person who is putting you though all of this, the person who was only useing you.

What can you do..

Now that the only time you don't think of him and his lies are the times in which you are sleeping or have something else to do. Then when there is nothing to be done you feel the pain of broken trust and the destruction of being offended.

What are you going to do..

When he doesn't call to answer your questions. When you do not know who is telling the truth. When this other girl he likes more has the body of a star while your is nothing but something great to snuggle. While her breasts are mountains and yours are nothing more then just a handful.

What are you going to do..

When he finally calls and you want to scream why. Why did you do this to me, what did I do to you to deserve this! Why me and why not her? Yet you can't scream, you can't even speak. So you break down and cry. He asks you why, why you are crying yet you still can't answer.

Now what do you say..

I hate you but I love you. I am in pain but really offended. How could you, why did you. Please leave or come hold me. I don't know what to do, I don't know who to believe. Do you deserve a second chance? Or will you remain the same.

Now what do you say...

When he confesses and brings all fo your fears to life. Bringing up painful memories when all he had to do was tell the truth. Do you take him out of your life forever for this mistake or give him a second chance. Ignore him for a little while and move on to try again and find another asshole who isn't worth your time before just giving up on everything like you had done in the past.. Saying school and work are more important then everything else and growing your heart into ice once more that you hope would never melt..

Will you cry..

I know I will. Enough is enough and sometimes to wear myself out means a good nights sleep without him being involved.

Will you get over him...

Not for a while, but in due time everyone pushes the things back that had hurt them the most.

Will you try again..

Maybe not. Maybe it is time I am the one who seeks out a partner of the same sex, giving something new a try or remain alone. You never know but the heart has to heal first before it shatters and cannot be fixed.